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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 03:56

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I said to her

Im dying but, im not bitter.

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But ive been too sick for many years..

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I couldn’t, believe it.

Can they start feeding only one meal to prisoners on death row or those doing a life sentence? Because only then will it be real punishment. If they want extra food they can work or pay from their own pocket.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Put me off passion for life!!

Are there any penalties for bestiality in the USA and laws prohibiting it?

Was to survive, this bastard.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Why do our deceased do not protect us from other bad spirits?

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

How old is planet Earth? Is it 4.5 billion years old or 6,000 years old?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Where can I sell naked pics of myself online?

I could never make a relationship work though!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

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He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I waited trembling.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

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Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

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I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

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My mum and dad in the seventies!

Who then, do I blame.?

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

How do I overcome attachment issues?

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I was very sick at this time too.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

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He was dying to do it , i knew.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

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Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

She married twice! .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

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He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

We were not on the streets..

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

But, we were locked up after school.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

He resisted the act ,that day.

She found it foreign!.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

(And it was in our own minds.)

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I had hoped to write a book about this .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

So whats the point in blame.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I will be 64.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Especially a lifetime of it.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

One cannot live in the past .

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I don,t even have a pension.

My family never makes their pension either.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Ive learnt so much.

As i do to all so called friends.?

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I have no regrets .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

What did i know ?

I was seconnd youngest,

Would this be the day?

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

This is soul school!.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I did it because my mum asked me too!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Comes on , in middle age.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

He knew the spot.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

She wouldn,t have been !

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Im still living with it.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Why did i forgive my father ?

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

It was going to be , some day.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

She was in good health!

So, i spoilt her more .

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

We all went to grammer schools

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I was 9 years of age.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

She loved him until the end.

I think the readers, may guess!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

But it wasn’t much.

And i lived it daily.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

When she asked me how she looked .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I was scared of men, in general

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I never cut or harmed myself..

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

All the time i was locked up.

My life is so biszare .

I write beautiful poetry .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.